overdued, but a post nonetheless. thank God i could spend an entire weekend in church for the youth spiritual meeting without r-mi intruding into those precious few days. though, i feel that it was a little too short and somehow not as filled as i expected it to be. still, it was good seeing and interacting with brothers and sisters from tk and semb, a great time for reunion and fellowship. had the pleasant opportunity to take photos of the event (again) and took a great group photo on the last day, though i think i could have taken better photos of the various activities if i were not too preoccupied with taking videos, a new area that im attempting to venture into with little success. nevertheless, i thank God for giving me the opportunity to do what i like in church. hope that all of us youths would strive and continue to seek roots, grow roots and take root in this passing journey of ours.
one particular activity that got me into my introverted, feverishly thinking mode was peer networking, where youths belonging to their own age groups gathered together to discuss about those other lost sheeps that were not there or no longer there. ran around taking a couple of photos before returning to my group, where i found them brainstorming about how to reintroduce themselves to select individuals and bring them back into the fold. however, i wasnt really paying too much attention. somehow, being idealistic isnt really my cup of tea. i was actually focusing on all of us who were sitting around me. what if 10, 5, or even 3 years down the road, one of us goes missing?
i am one who upholds the belief that people change, for better or for worst, as time goes by. especially in this period of adolescence where the environment around us is ever-fluctuating and we strive to adapt to these surroundings by changing ourselves (since most of the time we cant do the other). i have heard of numerous stories of how brothers and sisters who used to be so fervent and so strong in the faith leaving the church. i cant remember what reasons they have for doing so. frankly, i dont really care. but just like that, gone. trashing away this amazing grace of God for worldly gratification. throwing away eternity for a moments folly or impulse. just like that.
now lets not be hypocritical and merely talk about others. what about myself? what if one day, i too would come upon a mid-life crisis in my faith? would i even feel regretful and sorrowful if i chose the wide path to destruction, or would i not even feel the pinch at all? life is unpredictable. u see how people can have a 180degree turn in their life and become so saintly. and the other is also so true and so real.
the bible says that not everyone who says Lord, Lord can enter the kingdom of heaven.
what is the real motivation or driving force that is pushing me to keep on track on this burdensome and fiery path that a child of God must go through? is it really the love for God that compels me to remain faithful on this journey along the wilderness? or merely my mind deceiving me by gratifying desires or gaining achievements under hidden layers through various means within the church?
am I who i profess myself to be?
may the spirit of power, love and of a sound mind help me to find the answer before its too late.
But He knows the way that I take; When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.
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